《母親》
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一直不敢寫一首母親的詩
怕自己愛得太深寫出太淺的詩
怕太輕的文字有辱這份情的重量
母親的一生怎能用一首詩去抒情
即使用詩人雷平陽的詩句:
子宮的小,乳房的大。
也表達不了我對母親的情意
?
當我用有溫度的漢字
表達母親十月懷胎的美
表達平庸的父親娶上母親的善良
表達日漸壯健的我奪走母親的豐腴
表達天堂的路越來越寬在召喚這個老人
我的詩句怎么能有力量去歌頌
去抒懷去深愛去流淚的親情啊
我這首微弱而蒼白無力的詩歌
有愧于你這輩子的慈祥
和我們這一生母子的血緣
?
趁天國之燈還未亮
我提前預訂來世的情緣
即使做不成你的兒子
就讓輪回之手把我變成女人
為求下輩子去報答你
母親,你就做我的兒女吧
Mother
By Feng Zhenjiong
For long, I dare not to write a poem
to my mother whom I love
too deep to entrust shallow verses to carry the weighty emotion,
that a mother’s life cannot
be turn to a smooth melody,
that even borrowing from Lei Pingyang
“small womb, large breasts”,
I cannot express my affection.
I might use the warmth of Chinese letters
to show the beauty of her pregnancy,
her kindness to wed my common father,
her sacrifices to raise me up,
her path to heaven becoming wider and wider,
but still, my verses, too impotent to praise,
to love, to weep for her whom I love the most.
For you, an old woman, my soft and pale verse
is not enough for your love for me
and our mighty bond as mother and son.
When the heaven is not yet lighted up,
let me order our next life like this: —
even if I won’t be your son,
let me reincarnate to be a woman,
to repay your love in this life,
Mother, be my child next life.
(Translated by Joan Xie)
作者簡介:馮楨炯(1968.10— ),筆名:藍戰士,1985年開始創作,已出版個人詩集《一種生命》、《風鈴小語》、《誕生在冬天的孩子》(與吳茂盛合集)。在《詩刊》、《詩歌報》、《飛天》、《作品》等雜志發表作品。曾任《人民文學》雜志社理事、現任《中外詩人》雜志主編、紐約新世紀出版社董事長。居紐約和廣東。